Thursday, December 17, 2009

'Tis the nice

'Tis that time of year, packages arriving from near and far. I think it may have been just me, but I think the FedEx guy was a little disappointed when he came to the door again the other day and I answered it. (lol) Girls have such egos, don't we? Ego, self-esteem, obsessions, they are all rolled up together. Take last night for instance, there was a local area event. At this event, for the first time, I layed eyes on Green Eye's ex. Now I know how Green Eye's feels about me, I see how he looks at me, and I love it. The ex and I are polar opposites in looks, but damn those were some big (expensive) boobs. I think only women do this catty thing, what do you think? In my defense, I am a Leo, but now I do feel bad.

I actually just stopped in to update about Green Eyes outings. A successful trip to the mall for my make-up, thank you hon. A nice trip to the nail salon for a pedicure in the new capris, and a picture text to me while I sit sadly at work. Now Green Eye's is happily flip flopping around with smooth feet. This I am seriously jealous about, the boobs don't even compare (lol). Now Green Eye's is ready to get fully dressed and go out together. I was pushing it a little before, but he is having too much fun now. This could work for me too, I suggested we go to the movies. I love going to the movies but GE would prefer to watch a DVD at home. It seems now I might have a girlfriend to go to the movies with. Hmm...what should we see?

P.S. Dear Santa,
All I want for Christmas is a Mani-Pedi. I promise to be better next year.
Love, Lynn

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Honey...Can you get that

Most mornings these days Green Eyes waits for the last of the kids to leave for school before coming downstairs to have coffee. This way he can lounge a bit before he has to change out of his nightgown. The other morning was the same. The last kid left for the school bus, Green Eyes came down stairs. We had some coffee and then I left him in the dinning room sitting at his laptop to go up to my room. With the kids not home to need me I closed the bedroom door. A couple of minutes later I thought I heard a quiet knock. I figured it was just Green Eyes and I ignored it thinking he would just walk in. Then I looked out the window and saw the FedEx guy walking away from the house. Omg, I had to laugh (let's be clear I am laughing with him not at him). I knew Green Eyes was waiting for an important letter so he must have answered the door. I had to check so I went downstairs and sure enough, Green Eyes answered the door in his nightie (and goatee, lol). He said the FedEx guy didn't even do a double take. So we had a little laugh and a funny story to tell.

The letter was about a new job that Green Eyes will be starting soon. So his "funemployment", as we call it, will be over soon. He wants to take it easy today so he said he is going to get a pedicure, without me! Just to egg him on, not that he needs it, I said "I dare you to wear the new capri pants you just bought." Then I asked him to run an errand at the mall for me...go to the make-up counter and get the eye shadow I am out of please. Again, no real egging need there, lol. I hope he has a fun day, I can't wait to hear...I'm jealous, I want to go to the mall.

First trying on women's clothes in the store this past weekend, then answering the door in a nightie and lot's of potential fun today. I know we will get to that girls' night at the movies sooner than I thought. I'll keep you posted.

p.s. the whole pronoun issue is too much for my brain, when Green Eyes has a goatee and is not totally dressed up he is a he and it is easier for me to write that way. No offense intended to anyone, I know Green Eyes doesn't take any.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Mad as a Hatter?

"But I don't want to go among mad people," Alice remarked

"Oh, you can't help that," said the Cat: "we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad."

"How do you know I'm mad?" said Alice

"You must be," said the Cat, "or you wouldn't have come here."

I had a peek through the looking glass this weekend (I couldn't resist the pun, please forgive me). A couple I know, rather closely, is going through counseling together. What I heard about it was some of the wife's issues; anger, hanging onto anger, thinking life is just hard and unhappy and that is how it should be. After I held up my share of the speculation, and let's face it gossip about it, I had to do a double take in that looking glass. It was me, and I am mad as a hatter. This wife is exactly like me, as I was few years ago when I was married. It was a difficult decision to end my marriage, but in the end the correct one. It was a difficult road to self discovery and change, but worth it.

Lately I have been hanging out with the Hatter again (one of the reasons for so few posts). Hearing someone describe this couple to me just opened up my eyes. I have fallen back into old patterns. I don't like it and I need to choose to change it, to not get so mad, and when I do to let it go. Do to economic forces Green Eyes and I decided he should move in with me for a while. Well, change can be stressful for me. I think it all reminded me a little too much of when I was an unhappy wife. Next thing you know... down the rabbit hole I go. And let's add to that the monthly hormonal tidal surge, that alone could make you mad as a Hatter who has sniffed too much glue, lol.

This past weekend was calm. With no kids around Green Eyes and I had time to connect. That is the other reason for fewer post, kids. I like to write about the fun we have with cross-dressing. We have not had a chance to have some cross-dressing fun because busy and changing schedules have not left any "kid free" nights or weekends. I have to also admit that when I am mad about something I tend to not even let myself have fun with the things I normally would. And Poor Green Eyes, not only have I been close to certifiable he hasn't had time to relax and lounge around dressed as he pleases.

With no kids and no pressing schedule I suggested we go to the movies, a girls' night at the movies. Greens Eyes was not quite up for that, yet. So we decided to stroll through the mall and do some "window" shopping. We looked for some of the finishing accessories that might make Green Eyes' outfit complete enough to feel confident to go out in. After a brief rest we went out to another store where Green Eyes tried on some women's clothes and made the perfect purchase to go with some new shoes. I found nothing, never shop when the hormonal surge is in, lol. Then with such grey weather around we decided to rent some movies, lounge in our nightgowns and enjoy the peace and quiet of the house. Now when will they all be going off to college so we can do this again?

Anyone else get mad as a hatter? What do you choose to do?