Monday, December 7, 2009

Mad as a Hatter?

"But I don't want to go among mad people," Alice remarked

"Oh, you can't help that," said the Cat: "we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad."

"How do you know I'm mad?" said Alice

"You must be," said the Cat, "or you wouldn't have come here."

I had a peek through the looking glass this weekend (I couldn't resist the pun, please forgive me). A couple I know, rather closely, is going through counseling together. What I heard about it was some of the wife's issues; anger, hanging onto anger, thinking life is just hard and unhappy and that is how it should be. After I held up my share of the speculation, and let's face it gossip about it, I had to do a double take in that looking glass. It was me, and I am mad as a hatter. This wife is exactly like me, as I was few years ago when I was married. It was a difficult decision to end my marriage, but in the end the correct one. It was a difficult road to self discovery and change, but worth it.

Lately I have been hanging out with the Hatter again (one of the reasons for so few posts). Hearing someone describe this couple to me just opened up my eyes. I have fallen back into old patterns. I don't like it and I need to choose to change it, to not get so mad, and when I do to let it go. Do to economic forces Green Eyes and I decided he should move in with me for a while. Well, change can be stressful for me. I think it all reminded me a little too much of when I was an unhappy wife. Next thing you know... down the rabbit hole I go. And let's add to that the monthly hormonal tidal surge, that alone could make you mad as a Hatter who has sniffed too much glue, lol.

This past weekend was calm. With no kids around Green Eyes and I had time to connect. That is the other reason for fewer post, kids. I like to write about the fun we have with cross-dressing. We have not had a chance to have some cross-dressing fun because busy and changing schedules have not left any "kid free" nights or weekends. I have to also admit that when I am mad about something I tend to not even let myself have fun with the things I normally would. And Poor Green Eyes, not only have I been close to certifiable he hasn't had time to relax and lounge around dressed as he pleases.

With no kids and no pressing schedule I suggested we go to the movies, a girls' night at the movies. Greens Eyes was not quite up for that, yet. So we decided to stroll through the mall and do some "window" shopping. We looked for some of the finishing accessories that might make Green Eyes' outfit complete enough to feel confident to go out in. After a brief rest we went out to another store where Green Eyes tried on some women's clothes and made the perfect purchase to go with some new shoes. I found nothing, never shop when the hormonal surge is in, lol. Then with such grey weather around we decided to rent some movies, lounge in our nightgowns and enjoy the peace and quiet of the house. Now when will they all be going off to college so we can do this again?

Anyone else get mad as a hatter? What do you choose to do?


Nikki Fatale said...

Lady Lynnd,

It's hard to define what works in a given situation each event will require flexability.

My wife & I are both mega Alpha personalities but we work to try and remember where we come from.

Often just looking at the issue in front of you, to see if it's really worth being angry over can solve the problem quickly. Other times you might think back on the past of your life, sounds like your living in better days NOW. Being greatful for what you have in life quells a lot of wasteful anger.

Yeah your shaky about all the recent changes, but thats part of the adventure of life. Why let it piss you off(wasted time).

You don't have to know everything you want out of life, You can't. The world, people in it, technology, and discovery change everyday so can't know all your future desires. What you can know is what you don't want in life based on your past. Then you use it as a road map to avoid the landmines in your future travels.

Cherish what you have, as should green eyes and live on love.

All My Best,


P.S. you post with great intellect I'm happy to have you as part of our community.

lynnd said...

Thanks so much for your comment Nikki.