Life is not always fun, at least that is what I have told my kids once or twice. But is says right in the title of this blog, the very first word, Fun. That is what I wanted to write about most, the fun parts of life. Maybe you are wondering along with me, why haven't I written anything in such a long time. Let me think, first there were the holidays. I find them to be very stressful. I was happy when they were over and life could get back to a more normal routine. Hmm...routine, that's an interesting thought. Perhaps life is too routine? Go ahead, say it, you are probably thinking it...women, never satisfied!

Oh well, perhaps you can like me for my quirks. Lol, how about this story. Green Eyes hardly has any time these days to dress up while he is living with me. There are kids around most of the time, he had family visiting for three weeks and on a positive note he started a new job. So we finally get a kid free weekend and Green Eyes is going to go all out, wig and make-up too. I was excited for a girls night together. As it turned out, Green Eyes changed his mind and didn't want to shave the goatee. I was disappointed and pretty much pouted for the rest of the evening. What's wrong with that picture, girlfriend mad that boyfriend won't dress up, lol? Another first that weekend was that I used the feminine name Green Eyes uses. He liked hearing it I think.

Lost and Found

I’m not sure how to begin.  I was trying to start a new blog and came across this one I started to write years ago. I had mostly forgot all about it. I remember that I did it but not where. When I tried to sign in to blogger to start a new one I came across this. Having a little trouble navigating the site. I came across views, which told me 17 people looked at it last month, and 10k overall. I know that is not much in the scheme of things but I was shocked.  So I thought I would drop a line see if anyone really was reading and give a brief update if anyone was interested. Green eyes and I are still together.  How ever as with long term relationships there are rough patches, I feel like we have been in one for a while.  It’s been a long time since the cross dressing was fun for me, it more frustrating. I can’t speak for how Green eyes feels.  He does live as a man everyday, but dresses in women’s jeans or pants, women’s underwear, women’s sneakers and a woman’s cami under his men’s shirt. So...hi, just wanted to see who was still out there.

I Got Mail...

I got, dare I say..."fan mail" (please let me say). Thank you Suzzette for dropping me a note. It was inspiration to drop you all a note. I am still alive and well and so is Green Eyes. I am going to have to keep this some what brief as I have a big test to study for. Let me address Suzzette's question first. She asked basically two things, one, how does GE do trying clothes on when we are out shopping and two, does GE use a feminine name?

At first GE did not try things on in the store, he almost always ordered clothes on-line or just bought the item and tried it at home. We have been shopping together now and he has tried on women's clothes. Now he goes shopping without me and tries clothes on. Mostly we shop at discount stores so the dressing rooms are right next to each other. I think that makes it easier to grab some women's clothes and go into the men's dressing room. But I imagine one day it would be fun to shop in a department store, with GE dressed en femme, we could even share a dressing room.

As for question number two, GE does use a femme name, when dressed. I think I may have mentioned a little about this in a previous post. I don't usually use it. I have not really thought about why. I know on the rare occasion I do, GE likes it. As I think about it now, I don't often call him by his male name either. Hopefully it is just a silly quirk that GE finds charming about me (lol). I will leave it up to him if he would like to share his femme name, just leave a comment baby.

As for my disappearance, school is kicking my butt, physically, mentally and emotionally. I feel bad for GE, on what is supposed to be our Wednesday "date night" I am just a puddle of mush. We have not had any girls' nights in quite a while, but we do keep talking about going out to a movie. I will keep you posted should we do anything fun. In the meantime send good thoughts for me to do well in school. Drop me a note, I'll answer.

A Saturday Night

"Share with joy"...great advice, I think I will. Several weeks ago now Green Eyes and I had a weekend together where we had time to have some fun. We were invited to go out and meet some people with GE dressed en femme. However we decided we were not really up for a dance club. We had such a good time at the drag show when we were in Key West over the summer that we decided to find one close to home.

Of course you can't go out on a Saturday night without doing a little shopping first. We are always on the look-out for make-up for GE, especially the right foundation. It was time to try the mall and a little more upscale make-up. We stopped in the MAC store and they were very helpful. They took the time to try different shades on GE to find the right one. Then we looked at eye shadow and the girl was helpful with trying that on GE too. I have fun shopping with GE, and I think he has fun too. Sometimes it is hard for me to be sure because he is kind of quiet when we are in the stores.

Later that night we each went home to dress and Green Eyes then came to my place to finish dressing and do make-up. I helped put on the make-up. I didn't realize how long it took me. I am used to doing my own, which can be done in minutes, on him I took a very long time. I was shocked, I really lost track of time. Better late than never off we went.

Getting there a little late worked out okay, the cover to get in was less and we got to just sit at the bar, which is what we like. The show was fun. I like being out with GE and having a few beers together. Here was a first for me, and I am guessing GE too. Someone bought us drinks. A slightly older, and drunker, gentleman, with a female name that used to perform at the place we were at. He/she seemed like a regular or an owner or something. He/she seemed to like GE. It is fun to be noticed (however there were not enough straight men in there for me to be noticed). He/she even followed us out the door at the end of the night. I think GE enjoyed the attention and we both hated for the night to be over so quickly. As a GG though, the fun of the attention can quickly turn to scary and creepy, like being followed out.

It was a good thing that Green Eyes was driving again. I had a few drinks in a short amount of time, I was toasty. We did get a couple of pictures, but need to take more next time. Hopefully we won't have to wait so long before going out again. I told GE that next time he has to do his own make-up, so we can get out in a more timely fashion. I'll have to fill you in on what GE wore next time, this is where I exhibit "guy" behavior and can't remember what either one of us wore (sorry Babe, feel free to fill in).

Hello... again

First and foremost, thank you Ms. Petra for mentioning my blog in Voyages en Rose. It was such perfect timing for me. I have not posted in such a long while, I can hardly believe how long, and had just spoken with Green Eyes on the same subject the other day. He asked me to write about a fun night out we had (which I will do very soon). I was hesitant to write about it because I was feeling my blog writing was becoming a little one dimensional. I tend to filter myself quite a bit. (Babe, stop rolling your eyes, lol).

When I first started this blog I intended to write about many different aspects of myself and my life. One big part of my life is my love, who is a cross-dresser. I do accept it and I do support it (and sometimes I do say I have encourage/created a monster, lol). We have fun together. I hope you can see that from the things I have posted so far. As I look back, that is all I have written so far. That is my one dimensional dilema. If I am to be honest, there have been moments of unhappiness along the way too.

I think I need to open the filter a little. I spoke with GE about this too. I told him that sometimes I don't want to write about negative feelings because I don't want him to take things the wrong way or feel like I am putting personal issues out there for others to see before him. After talking and thinking, I realize that I filter myself with GE too, much to his frustration I would guess. I think trying to open up and express more here might help me do the same in other aspects of my life.

As a disclaimer to my GE, and anyone else who reads this blog, one bad moment, one bad day or one unhappy comment does not mean I am no longer accepting or supportive. It is just one moment in time that will move along. Even if you love pizza and you could eat it every day, there might be a day when you don't feel like pizza, it doesn't mean you don't love to eat pizza (Babe, I think I feel like having pizza tonight, I hope you read this before dinner).

In the future I hope to give a more rounded picture of life. Maybe I will write about my kids, or my school work, or my dysfunctional relationship with my mom (probably not, that could take up an entire blog on its own) along with the fun the Green Eyes and I have together. I would also love to hear from readers. I am open to answering questions, topic suggestions and anyone who knows me knows that I love to give my opinion.

Hopefully we'll have more fun, finding Her, She, ME! Thanks again Petra!

Photo Shoot Night

It has been a quiet week for me with my kids away. Green Eyes and I have had a lot of time together and it has been really nice. The other night we took advantage of the privacy, Green Eyes decided to try on the new wig and get all dressed up, makeup, heels and all. Photo Shoot night! GE went to work practicing the makeup application himself. I did help with the eyeliner, but he did a great job. He used some of my makeup and I think we are in agreement, you have to use good makeup, and it truly makes a difference.

GE had a nice, simple, little black dress and peep toe black patent heels on. The new wig and makeup looked really great. He looked the most like a woman that I have ever seen him. When I was close to his face and giving him a kiss, it felt like a woman. It was actually a little odd for me. I was worried about telling him this, but to my relief he took it as a compliment. Here is a question for anyone that might read this, do you find that when you are dressed en femme that your facial expressions change?

We took a bunch of pictures in the LBD. Then we took some with GE in a maxi dress that was fun and bright with straps and wedge heels. I can't wait to see the pictures. It was a fun night. I think we would both like to go out again, girl's night out. We just can't decide what to do or where to go. It is fun to go to a club that is friendly, but I think we would like to find something a little lower key. Life is about to get busy again, I hope we can make the time to get out. Here is another question, if you go out en femme with your girlfriend or wife, where do you like to go?

Shopping Kudos

Recently Green Eyes and I were strolling through a fleamarket type mall. GE has wanted a wig with longer hair for quite a while, but they are very pricey. GE buys many clothes on-line, but has held off on this purchase. To be honest, I think many CDers are shop-a-holics, come on...how many of you can admit it? Sorry, I digress, we were shopping and stopped at a wig place and looked around. GE asked the woman if they had any older wigs in the back that they might sell. I thought this was a great idea, it would never have occured to me to ask that. The woman quickly came back with three to choose from. GE got the perfect wig, just what he had been looking for. She said it would be thirtly dollars and he offered twenty, she accepted. The least expensive wigs there were around one hundred dollars and the longer ones are even more expensive. That was a true bargain. Kudos to you Babe. I was very impressed and even a little jealous because I didn't find anything for myself that day.

For You Babe

Because I love to read a good story and live vicariously through it I am going to tell you one, mostly because my Baby wants to read it. Let's skip over the months of silence here, the day to day of your average crazy life. Let's take a vacation! A real vacation, hours and hours from home and everyone you know.

Welcome to Key West...paradise! Green Eyes and I decided to take advantage of a great hotel deal, support the economy around the Gulf of Mexico, and take some much needed time to connect. We arrived at a beautiful resort, lushly landscaped and wonderfully decorated. The hours of travel and the overcast rainy skies did not matter. Away from home the tension just fades away. GE was happy as a clam in his favorite capri pants, shiny anklet, stylish flip flops with black patent leather straps and stylish shades.

The only plan was to enjoy ourselves, and go wherever the mood took us. We did talk about one girls night out and one night out with my handsome guy. Girls night out would be a first for GE, we usually do girls night in. Surprisingly the packing for this possibility was not as grueling as I expected (I love you babe).

We strolled around town, walked on the little bit of beach, sat by the pool and relaxed. I think GE's second favorite part (I think I should make that third) of vacation is sitting on the balcony having coffee in the morning, in a very Keys like pink and white stripe, spaghetti strap maxi dress ( I want it). When a woman checking in as we were checking out asked my what my favorite thing was I wanted to say the big giant bed and lots of great vacation sex, but that did not seem appropriate, although very true. As I fumbled to answer GE jumped in to help me by saying it was the drag show we went to, also true, but number two on my list. Hey, I'm a forty something woman, sex is always number one on my list!

We did go to a drag show and it was lots of fun. We decided that would be our girls night out. There were two clubs with shows, one suggested reservations and a review mentioned a fair amount of tourists in the audience. We decided to go to dinner, in drab for GE, and then get dressed and go to a late show. We would drive by both places, as it is a small town, and decide which drew us in at the moment. GE basically only brought one outfit so it did not take long to dress. Although there was a slight change, I think it worked very well. GE had a denim skirt, a pink t-shirt, pink patent flip flops, a cute silver necklace and big silver hoop earrings. I thought it was very appropriate and girly. I think GE is was a little disappointed that he didn't wear the higher wedge sandals, but first time out, drinking, old uneven roads, flats were better (and again, I want a pair of pink flip flops). I helped with make-up, which I think came out nice. I know I don't put it on as heavily as GE would like, but it's a learning curve, even for us GGs. Wig, very nice (even if I did pick it out myself) and the newest addition...breast forms. Ok those things are very cool, they feel really cool too. I think I get how men become obsessed with breasts.

All dressed, out we went. When we passed the first bar the girls performing were standing outside waving to passers-by. That seemed friendly to me. The second place had more people waiting to get in, mostly tourist looking as I had read. We parked and opted for the first place, 801 Bar. As we walked down a side street we got a little shout out from someone on their porch, "looking good ladies". GE was a little bit nervous I think, when we first got to the bar he was not speaking, no problem I just jumped in. The place was not crowded at all, we took a seat toward the side of the bar, but not right up front. We ordered a couple of drinks and the show began. I have never been to a drag show. It was great and funny, I am really glad we went. There were four performers and they were all different. They all walked around the bar and we took a few pictures. GE received several compliments on his wig. Usually when we are out I like to touch GE, just little gestures and kisses. As this was a first I was not sure what I would do. I decided to turn down the PDA, although I couldn't help to put my hand on GE's knee, they are tanner and smoother than mine, I can't help it. I had a great time and would love to do it again.

The three drinks I had that night left me a bit toasty, good thing I was not driving. On the way back to the hotel we stopped in a store to pick up a snack. Another first, being out in a store, not just in a friendly bar. A good evening all around, lots of fun and no problems. Except that maybe I was too drunk and tired for more fun when we got back to the room, hard to believe, I know. Firsts are fun and worth remembering. I just hope I did this one justice.

Fortune Cookie

Don't be afraid of opposition, remember, a kite rises against the wind.

Unknown cookie

Call me a Pessimist

"We have to distrust each other. It is our only defense against betrayal"

Tennessee Williams

Quote

Better to write for yourself and have no public than to write for the public and have no self.

Cyril Connolly

I watch a TV show called Criminal Minds. They begin and end each episode with a quote. Above is the ending quote from last night's show. It touched something in me and I felt I needed to share it.

'Tis the season...be nice

'Tis that time of year, packages arriving from near and far. I think it may have been just me, but I think the FedEx guy was a little disappointed when he came to the door again the other day and I answered it. (lol) Girls have such egos, don't we? Ego, self-esteem, obsessions, they are all rolled up together. Take last night for instance, there was a local area event. At this event, for the first time, I layed eyes on Green Eye's ex. Now I know how Green Eye's feels about me, I see how he looks at me, and I love it. The ex and I are polar opposites in looks, but damn those were some big (expensive) boobs. I think only women do this catty thing, what do you think? In my defense, I am a Leo, but now I do feel bad.

I actually just stopped in to update about Green Eyes outings. A successful trip to the mall for my make-up, thank you hon. A nice trip to the nail salon for a pedicure in the new capris, and a picture text to me while I sit sadly at work. Now Green Eye's is happily flip flopping around with smooth feet. This I am seriously jealous about, the boobs don't even compare (lol). Now Green Eye's is ready to get fully dressed and go out together. I was pushing it a little before, but he is having too much fun now. This could work for me too, I suggested we go to the movies. I love going to the movies but GE would prefer to watch a DVD at home. It seems now I might have a girlfriend to go to the movies with. Hmm...what should we see?

P.S. Dear Santa,
All I want for Christmas is a Mani-Pedi. I promise to be better next year.
Love, Lynn

Honey...Can you get that

Most mornings these days Green Eyes waits for the last of the kids to leave for school before coming downstairs to have coffee. This way he can lounge a bit before he has to change out of his nightgown. The other morning was the same. The last kid left for the school bus, Green Eyes came down stairs. We had some coffee and then I left him in the dinning room sitting at his laptop to go up to my room. With the kids not home to need me I closed the bedroom door. A couple of minutes later I thought I heard a quiet knock. I figured it was just Green Eyes and I ignored it thinking he would just walk in. Then I looked out the window and saw the FedEx guy walking away from the house. Omg, I had to laugh (let's be clear I am laughing with him not at him). I knew Green Eyes was waiting for an important letter so he must have answered the door. I had to check so I went downstairs and sure enough, Green Eyes answered the door in his nightie (and goatee, lol). He said the FedEx guy didn't even do a double take. So we had a little laugh and a funny story to tell.

The letter was about a new job that Green Eyes will be starting soon. So his "funemployment", as we call it, will be over soon. He wants to take it easy today so he said he is going to get a pedicure, without me! Just to egg him on, not that he needs it, I said "I dare you to wear the new capri pants you just bought." Then I asked him to run an errand at the mall for me...go to the make-up counter and get the eye shadow I am out of please. Again, no real egging need there, lol. I hope he has a fun day, I can't wait to hear...I'm jealous, I want to go to the mall.

First trying on women's clothes in the store this past weekend, then answering the door in a nightie and lot's of potential fun today. I know we will get to that girls' night at the movies sooner than I thought. I'll keep you posted.

p.s. the whole pronoun issue is too much for my brain, when Green Eyes has a goatee and is not totally dressed up he is a he and it is easier for me to write that way. No offense intended to anyone, I know Green Eyes doesn't take any.

Mad as a Hatter?

"But I don't want to go among mad people," Alice remarked

"Oh, you can't help that," said the Cat: "we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad."

"How do you know I'm mad?" said Alice

"You must be," said the Cat, "or you wouldn't have come here."

I had a peek through the looking glass this weekend (I couldn't resist the pun, please forgive me). A couple I know, rather closely, is going through counseling together. What I heard about it was some of the wife's issues; anger, hanging onto anger, thinking life is just hard and unhappy and that is how it should be. After I held up my share of the speculation, and let's face it gossip about it, I had to do a double take in that looking glass. It was me, and I am mad as a hatter. This wife is exactly like me, as I was few years ago when I was married. It was a difficult decision to end my marriage, but in the end the correct one. It was a difficult road to self discovery and change, but worth it.

Lately I have been hanging out with the Hatter again (one of the reasons for so few posts). Hearing someone describe this couple to me just opened up my eyes. I have fallen back into old patterns. I don't like it and I need to choose to change it, to not get so mad, and when I do to let it go. Do to economic forces Green Eyes and I decided he should move in with me for a while. Well, change can be stressful for me. I think it all reminded me a little too much of when I was an unhappy wife. Next thing you know... down the rabbit hole I go. And let's add to that the monthly hormonal tidal surge, that alone could make you mad as a Hatter who has sniffed too much glue, lol.

This past weekend was calm. With no kids around Green Eyes and I had time to connect. That is the other reason for fewer post, kids. I like to write about the fun we have with cross-dressing. We have not had a chance to have some cross-dressing fun because busy and changing schedules have not left any "kid free" nights or weekends. I have to also admit that when I am mad about something I tend to not even let myself have fun with the things I normally would. And Poor Green Eyes, not only have I been close to certifiable he hasn't had time to relax and lounge around dressed as he pleases.

With no kids and no pressing schedule I suggested we go to the movies, a girls' night at the movies. Greens Eyes was not quite up for that, yet. So we decided to stroll through the mall and do some "window" shopping. We looked for some of the finishing accessories that might make Green Eyes' outfit complete enough to feel confident to go out in. After a brief rest we went out to another store where Green Eyes tried on some women's clothes and made the perfect purchase to go with some new shoes. I found nothing, never shop when the hormonal surge is in, lol. Then with such grey weather around we decided to rent some movies, lounge in our nightgowns and enjoy the peace and quiet of the house. Now when will they all be going off to college so we can do this again?

Anyone else get mad as a hatter? What do you choose to do?

Soapbox

First a little warning, I am going to stand on my soapbox and voice my own thoughts and opinions based on my own experiences. Please take from what you read what you will. I realize there are many different spots along the transgender/cross-dressing line, as well as there are along the...let's call it..."plain gendered" line. With that said I do not intend to offend anyone, if I do I am sorry, I'm just an opinionated genetic girl.

Before I step up on my box I just want to acknowledge that I have not posted in a very long while. I think I intended to write about the fun things in my life, girlfriend of my cross-dressing boyfriend. I hit a very stressful patch, nothing to do with cross-dressing, just life issues everyone faces. I was torn between writing and venting here or not and only keeping things more upbeat. I tend to hold things in so I opted for not writing. Also, some issues did involve Green Eyes and I did not know how he would take to me venting here. Things are slowly getting better, the stress levels are coming down from their peak. So I am back and hopefully not forgotten.

Step up...

I was really drawn back to post something because of some of the things written in the blogs that I follow. You will see them to the left. I follow them very closely even though I rarely post comments. There are some places where cross-dressers and or transgendered people don't appreciate comments from genetic girls, or just ignore them. There is nothing worse for a GG than to be ignored, lol! However, this said, these girls I follow are not like that. They seem truly open and nice, some I have chatted with via email. Petra, Lynn, Jessica and Leslie all seem like wonderful girls...and great guys.

I hope that did not offend anyone. That is how I see these girls I follow. They are both men and women. Sometimes they are men, sometimes women, often a little bit of both. They appreciate and enjoy both genders. This is also how I see my Green Eyes. He is a guy, all guy at times, frustratingly guy at times. He also likes to dress in women's clothing. Sometimes he thinks, feels and emotes more like a woman. I think of him as a cross-dresser, he is happy with his male gender and occasionally exploring the female gender. Hopefully now you know where I speak from.

Lately I have been reading in the blogsphere about troubles between cross-dressers and their wives. This makes me sad and even sometimes mad. For me it is not a big deal that Green Eyes is a cross-dresser. It is something he does, it is part of him, it makes him happy, it is a private thing that does not involve or hurt others. When he told me I was not upset, it was about five months or so into our relationship. I was happy and honored that he was able to share this very private thing with me. I saw the fun we could have with it together. Don't get me wrong, I am not as perfect as I would like to sound. I am just a GG with a wild imagination and uncontrollable hormones, so sometimes I have moments of jealousy that Green Eyes is more into his reflection than me, that its all about shopping for him not me. But I am a GG, I have these feelings when he is doing some "guy" activity and not paying enough attention to me. (I know you love me honey, I just have to make a point, yeah yeah, I also know I always have to make a point, lol)

All of this rambling boils down to a few points. I wish that the wives of these nice cross-dressers would just let go and have some fun with it. If you really do worry about other people it is not difficult to do things privately. It can be a fun and bonding experience to have a secret that just two people share. Relationships, especially marriages, are hard. If you don't have cross-dressing as an issue (and let me be clear, I don't think it should be an issue) you have a million other ones...who is a slob, who is more helpful, who is more attentive... So if your cross-dresser wants to shave, let him, who cares, it is hair, it grows back. Green Eyes has much nicer legs than mine, nicer skin. It makes him happy. Compromise. Green Eyes has a goatee, I love it. Sometimes he shaves it to put on make-up, I have fun with that too, then it grows back. Everyone is happy.

On the flip side of this point, for you cross-dressers, incase you are in man mode and need it spelled out...wives need a lot of attention. No, more than that...no...more. For Green Eyes and myself, we are not married and we do not have kids together, so when he told me I did not worry about him leaving me or our kids. It took some time and small steps to get to know his thoughts on cross-dressing and to go from seeing him in women's panites to the whole wig and make-up. I do know that he is not going to leave me, he is happy with his gender, or rather both genders. He does not want one over the other. That does help to know, as a girlfriend. So cross-dressers (if this is the case), tell your wife often that you are happy as the male they know, and that cross-dressing is just another side of you. Tell them often, we GGs need a lot of reasuring, no more...more.

Wives...lighten up and have some fun. Get dressed up, your husbands truly appreciate this, they are envious of it. Take advantage of the fact that they truly enjoy going shopping with you, they were just pretending they didn't. Have fun together!

Cross-dressers...slow and steady wins the race as they say. We GGs have very fragile egos, and I know you understand that. Plenty of communication about both people. Lastly, buy your wife pretty things too.

It all comes down to moderation in all things.

Step down.

Spread the word ladies, I would like to hear from some wives and GGs.

Lucy, just slightly more sympathetic.

I am an avid web surfer. I love to read blogs and forums. I love to know what other people are thinking. People are fascinating. Way back when, while I was in college I minored in the study of psychology. These days, as I am back in school, I wonder if I should have pursued that farther. Sometimes I think of myself like Lucy, from the Peanuts comic, and wish I could hang up my sign...The Doctor is IN. (if I were more computer savvy I would insert a picture here, lol)

What could be more interesting than human behavior? People are so diverse and yet struggle with the same emotions. It makes me feel good when I can lend an ear to someone and give them a few words to let them know someone is listening and understands. I know how much I appreciate having the ear of a good friend, or a good therapist. Maybe it is just that little thing of feeling you are not alone.

When I am with my Green Eyes I don't feel alone and I like that. Last night, as you followers may realize, was Wednesday Date Night. We decided it would be a stay home night, there is a bit of job stress in the air, and I have studying to keep up with. That is not to say we didn't have a little fun. No cooking for me, we ordered pizza, Sicilian, I am still stuffed (next time we stick to regular pizza)! Then I had to draw the line after the pizza, "no we are not baking brownies, lol". It is too true, the way to a man's heart is through his stomach. Thank goodness Green Eyes loves my curves.

After dinner we settled onto the sofa, all comfy in our nighties, together. I had a large text book and Green Eyes had a new pair of really cute pink canvas, sling back, wedges. What is wrong with that picture, lol? I am getting a serious itch to go shoe shopping. But I digress, Green Eyes and I have actually spent the past few evenings together. He has some stress in his life and I am hopefully giving him the ear he needs, and the arms to cuddle with him. It feels good to be able to do that.

Like I said, the Doctor is in...any questions? $0.05 will get you my two cents!

More than friends, Girlfriends.

Do I start with hello to my five followers or do I start with I am sorry that I have not posted in while. I choose both. I would also like to add a big Thank You to Petra, (as you other four girls know) famed writer of the Voyages En Rose blog. Petra noticed my absence from the blogsphere and sent an email asking after me. Besides Petra being a wise woman with thoughtful words I realized she is a friend, my friend, someone that noticed my absence and reached out to me. With renewed inspiration to write and share my thoughts here I am.

Girlfriends seem to be the topic. Just the other day Staci Lana wrote in her blog, Femulate, about girltalk and chatting with women and I started to think about girlfriends. Then Petra's note to me reminded me again about girlfriends. Green Eyes and I had a brief conversation about girlfriends the other day too. I am a big believer in the stars and to me these separate instances add up to a sign telling me to stop and think a minute.

For me, a GG, it is not just friends that are important it is specifically girlfriends. Time with my girlfriends, conversations with my girlfriends renew me. We feed each other the things we need, an ear to listen to our thoughts whether they are serious or silly, words of either complete honesty or unconditional support. Girlfriends put themselves in the moment with each other, the moment could be about make-up or frustrating kids, being there together is what is important. That is what lifts us up. I am greatful for my girlfriends.

I think I may be gaining a new girlfriend, in Green Eyes (this is a bonus, he is a great boyfriend too). This weekend, after too much "life" getting in our way, we spent some quality time together on Sunday, shopping. We have been shopping together before, looking at women's clothes and shoes. Usually Green Eyes hangs back a bit as I bounce around the store touching things and trying shoes on. I know he like women's clothes, but he remains quiet in the store. This weekend we went out in our sort of matching flip flops and matching anklets, silly fun. In the store Green Eyes tried on some shoes and when I held up some clothes I thought would look good for him he joined me in checking them out more closely. We both got some new clothes this time instead of just me. I felt like for the first time we both had a good time.

Green Eyes still asked "Why don't you care that I go out wearing an anklet?" I truly have no other response than "Why should I care?" After a few emails the next day reveiwing our shopping fun Green Eyes wrote to me that it is good to be girlfriends. YES it is! Drop me a line girlfriends, I need to hear from you.

Two for One

Two posts in one day. I feel the need to catch up a little. Vacation is over and life is back in full swing. Back to work and back to school, not just for the kids, I have a class tonight. This is the second class I am taking since starting back for a second degree. I have to confess I am a little nervous. As I flip through my new and obscenely expensive text book, I think this class might be a little harder than Chemistry. I am enjoying going back to school though, using my brain and learning new things.

I am feeling pretty good. I did notice in the past few weeks myself and others (mostly people whose blogs' I read) were feeling rather down. The planets must have been way out of wack for so many to feel the same way at the same time. This Leo does believe in astrology to a fair degree. I feel like my little vacation and getting out of the summer chaos and back into more of a routine has helped me.

Now, back to our regularly scheduled date night, I know we only missed one while I was away. I think because I did relax while I way away I was able to relax last night. Green Eyes and I had no real plans for the evening. Some times I get a little antsy (or maybe more accurately... pouty) if we don't go out. Last night I was happy to stay home and cook dinner. Although Green Eyes did not feel like getting dressed up I decided to. I put on a nice dress, with a nice neckline, and these really sexy high heels I just bought. As much fun as I have been having with Green Eyes' make-up and wig lately it was very nice to have his eyes on me all night last night. They are gorgeous green eyes.

Beach Report

Air Temp - 93F
Water Temp - same
...Welcome to So Fla

Back from the beach I am feeling a bit refreshed and sporting a nice tan. Of course I have to accept that I will never tan as nicely as Green Eyes. And those green eyes stand out even more with a tan. My tan line is sexier though. I had to say it, as Green Eyes knows, I am shamefully competitive about silly things. Who am I kidding, if he could wear what ever he wanted his tan line would be nicer too!

A vacation away from home, even if it is only a few hours away, gives your mind a chance to let go of all the daily responsibilities and thoughts that weigh it down. My little trip allowed me to realize this and do it. While I was away I missed Green Eyes, but it was a good feeling. I did not have that needy feeling. I was feeling good thinking about all of the reasons I love him. Green Eyes often tells me that some anticipation can be a good thing, maybe I need to take his advice a little more often. (p.s.- I know you are reading, don't let that go to your head, lol, XO)

I learned a few other things on this little trip as well. A vacation at the beach is not really complete with out a rum filled frozen drink. Getting stung by a stingray (not me thankfully) is very painful and you really should get medical attention right away, also, soak it in very hot water. A Monopoly game takes three days to finish. Perhaps most important, who you travel with can really make or break your vacation. Note to self...next trip bring Green Eyes.

I only have one head

One head and many hats. Sometimes when you have a lot of different hats to wear in life you wind up needing to wear them simultaneously. That just looks silly, hat on top of hat. It can also feel heavy, the weight of several hats at once. That is how I have felt lately. Funny, that heavy feeling is good for writing poetry, but I need to feel more upbeat to write a blog.

The past couple of weeks have been busy. The mom hat was on with the kids all home from various trips and no camp to keep them busy. The sister and daughter hat were on with my brother visiting. The student hat was on while I studied for a final exam. The girlfriend hat felt like it was at the bottom and slipping and no time for date night while studying.

I had a birthday in the mix of all this too. Being the prideful Leo that I am birthdays mean a lot to me, maybe more than to most. This year's birthday was a bit of a roller coaster, up and down. But another day and I am feeling more upbeat. I got an A in my chemistry class! Hunted down some money my ex owed me. The prospect of a date night. A few days at the beach coming up.

So with only one head what is the best thing to do at these times? Take them all off and put your hair in a ponytail!